no more.

no more love no more special support since you went away from my mind, i know that i made the hardest thing to be decided.
i love u,but it doesnt mean too, so sick i was.
never for u to know how deep my love is, i guess totally.
i think u'll love me as it seems eventually. .
so amazing to be closed with u, but it also hurt me when i knew the reality.
so sad truely to know that we are not being as friend in facebook.
can not see u by your photo as usual.
can not know what's happening on you.
always pray all the best things for u conan :) :)
oneday you'll know how holdy my love is.. :DDD
miss u much, we were not met again for 2 weeks, just saw you on DAIM as usual, but you didnt.
what are u doing conannnnnn..????
my angle say " he is fine, I'll keep him fine for u my sweet heart :))"

So Sorry Conan :")

yeeeeessss, hari ini rasanya luar biasa "cape"..
cape bengkel cape ngitung cape mikir dan cape cape yang lainyaa...
tp satu hal yang selalu bisa bkin gw terlihat "yess i am fine :))"
menutupi kesedihan gw dengan senyum :)
gw bs bgt bwt tersenyum untuk nutupin rasa sedih atau masalah gw, tp kali ini gg, susah bgt rasanya, gw gg bs bohong juga klo ternyata gw sedihh, knpa harus bgini ya..??
sinetron bgt gara2 cinta bsa ky gini,,, ihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsshhhhhhhhhhhh
gw gg gampang jatuh cinta, tp klo gw udh jatuh cinta bukan hal yang mudh juga bwt gw mutusin rasa cinta, yesss
cinta bwt gw sakral bgt, klo udh satu ya satu gw gg bisa pindah2 sm yang lain atau sejenisnya, gw mencintai seseorang tulus bukan karna "Harta" dan teman2nya...
tp disaat gw jatuh cinta,sayangnya org yg gw cinta gg nunjukin sm ky apa yang gw maksud, gw gg mungkin jelasin atau ksh tanda duluan, gengsi gwt beeessaarrrrr bgt, jgnkn untuk itu, untuk hal sepele ky senyum aja, gw gengsiii bgt...!!!!!!
tp dia terlalu pasif gw jd makin bingungggg,,
dan ternyata bner dia gg sm sprti apa yang gw maksud ke dia, walaupun br kesimpulan gw semata.
tp yang gw heran knapa klo lo gg suka , ada perhatian khusus yang lo ksh gw beda dr yang lain, pandangn lo jg beda klo ketemu gw. narik ulur bgt ksanya,
gw harus punya prinsip jelasss... gw tunggu slama 2 minggu msh gtu juga... ok mungkin waktunya bwt gw harus lupain lo....
cara yang gw pilih adalah dengn cara ngeremove dia dr fb gw, jahat sih emang cuma bwt gw itu cra satu2nya
bwt cepet lupa,, #katatemen gw gg logis bgt, booddhh lah lanjuttt.....
weewww, trnyata dia sadar tentang ini, walaupun gg langsung bilang ke gw, cuma di status fb nya dia terkesan marah dan kasar, itu pertama kalinya gw liat dia bgtu, nyeesssssssss
kembang kempis jantung gw.. mau nangis gengsii bgt, gw pasrah aja dehh ..
sekrang pa yang gw harepin udh mulai ada hasil, gw sush bgt lupain dia, dengn cara bkin dia benci sm gw, the best way mnurut gw.
bkin gw terpacu bwt cepet lupa dehhhhh...
gw sayang bgt sm orang ini, gg gw pungkiri lg gw cinta sm si conan, cm dia gg pernah ksh gw kepastian smpe saat ini, alias bkin gw kecewa dan putus asa juga..
sekrang gw cuma bs merhatiin org ini dr jauh, gw gg bsa sapa atau ngobrol lagi total bgt ennganya..
tp gpp someday he'll know mksud gw dan mungkin dia bs sadar :)))
seenggak nya dia bahagia dan sehat udh jd hal yang bisa bkin gw tenang, total bgt gw jd SECRET ADMIRER dia skarang :DDD

gw ikhlas skarang.... yeyey udh dulu dehh gw msh ada pr mtk, waktuny bwt gw belajar.  remember my promise gw mau CUMLAUDE...!!!

hadeehh ngetik aja msh kebayang2 muka si conan gw . huuffhhhhhhhh

my pray ^_^

yes,,
tepat skrang waktunya bwt gw tidur cuma sbelum tidur gw sempetin bwt isi blog gw tersayang
dengn bbrapa doa ,
semoga bsok hari senin kuliah gw mkin smangat dn dipermudah untuk setiap ilmu yang gw pelajarin
so gw bisa wujudin cita cita gw bwt "CUMLAUDE"
aamiiiinnnn, semuanya gw lakuin bwt orang tua gw tersayang yang selalu dukung gw disetiap langkah yang gw ambil dn bahkan rela berkorban bwt gw sepjang hidupnya. so totally i"ll do best for them wish me :))

semoga orang tua gw selalu panjang umur sehat selalu dan dilindungi oleh Allah swt. amiinnnnn
kebahagiaan selalu tercurah bwt mereka amin Allahuma Amin..

bwt semua tmen2 gw biar mkin kompak dan slalu satu dmanapun kpanpun. aminn

bwt semua orang yang gw sayangi sedalam2nya, semoga Allah Swt selalu ngelindungin mreka amiiiinnn

dan yang terakhir bwt orang yang gw cintai si "Conan", (panggilan sayang gw bwt dia) unyyuuuu ngok geli juga dbacanya haaaahahahhaha
semoga dia selalu baik2 aja amiinnnnnn..
oneday you'll know how much i love u..

bodohnya gw cm bs jadi secret admirer,  :{
gengsi gw gede bgt sihh emang tp yasudahhlaah hhehehe.
Allah pasti ksh yang terbaik bwt umatnya, semoga bsok gw bisa liat dia dikmpus amiinnnnnnnnn

that's it, gw mau tidur, markizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzit ~~

Daniel Bedingfield - if you are not the one. :)

yaa this song, as my dedicating for my first written on this blog, i love this song much, as the symbol of my heart for someone that i love there. :)) maybe oneday you'll know how i love u much, doesnt matter for me that he doesnt know about this blog, the most important is how good my love is. If your not the one then why does my soulf feel glad today If your not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way If you are not mine then why does your heart my calls If you you are not mine would i have the strength to stand at all I dont know what the future brings,but i know your here with me now We'll make it through and i hope you are the one i share my life with (chorus) I dont wanna run away but i cant take it i dont understand If i'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that i am Is there anyway that i can stay in your arms If i dont need you then why am i crying on my bed If i dont need you then why does your name resound in my head If your not for me then why does this distance name my life If your not for me then why do i dream of you as my husband I dont know why your so far away but i know this much is true We'll make it through and i hope you are the one i share my life with And i wish that you could be the one i die with And i pray that your the one i build my home with I hope i love you all my life [chorus] Couse i miss you body and soul so stroung that it takes my breath away And i breath you into my heart and i pray for the strenghth to stand today Couse i love you weither its wrong or right and though i cant be with you tonight And though my heart is by your side.